the connection eyes

evan_x_szabo @ 2004-06-25T18:49:00

2004-06-25T22:51:17Z

local tonight..if my brother ever gets here.

anatholo
bensin
chiodos bros.

enough said

latley ive been thinking of someone who used to mean alot to me, it pisses me off knowing that i fucked up and it is basically my fault. onyl a few of you know what im talking about.

evan_x_szabo @ 2004-06-24T13:39:00

2004-06-24T17:39:42Z

hey ________,

how does it feel to know you ruined my life.

thanks

szabo

evan_x_szabo @ 2004-05-21T23:17:00

2004-05-22T03:18:00Z

new livejournal name

soundsofsinking

add me and i will add you

evan_x_szabo @ 2004-05-16T23:09:00

2004-05-17T03:11:28Z

im done with this thing...if decide im not i will update again

if i could take your pain away, i would scream for you

2004-05-16T04:57:47Z

man im beginning to dislike livejournal very much so. maybe its becasue no one even comments or anythign any more but whatever, im not that sad about it.
ne ways soo i found out that my art thing for the art show got a honorable mention? what the fuck it so didn't deserve it. o well i was like umm..okay

so yesterday i went over to rob's and steve trosen came over and we did nothign much downloaded some 80's and 70's
1. video killed the radio star
2. tainted love
3. journey- died in your arms tonight
4. journey-anyway you want it
5. journey-when the lights go down in the city
6. cheap trick- i want you to want me
7. cheap trick-surrender
and more

today i went to the flushign vs. fenton hockey game and it was a really good game. but i was sad becasue my friend autumn rzendzian didn't show up as planned but o well im over it. but ne ways we won the game 4-2 it was a really good game. a.j . beadle got a game misconduct and was ejected from the game o well.

then i went back to robs played hockey. ruled the street. and then went to jamas with my bro and his girlfriend. and there was a ton of people there. k i will mention all of the people i saw there that i talked to. (sorry if i forget some) compton, james, jack stewart, sabrina, anna peters, jar hed, jeff, briel, asa, chelsea, ali , hannah, lauren, adam, josh, emily, jay, pete, etc.
it was a crazy good night. good way to end off a night.

evan_x_szabo @ 2004-05-14T00:08:00

2004-05-14T04:11:51Z

1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says: just do what you love and believe and it will come naturally(haha wtf)
2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?: wall

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?: frasier

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is: 11:53

5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?: haha 11:53

6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?: t.v.

7: When did you last step outside?: about 3 hours ago

8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at?: nothing

9: What are you wearing?: grey dickies and a shirt

10: Did you dream last night?: yuppers

11: When did you last laugh?: 3 seconds ago

12: What is on the walls of your room?Green paint...and a moneen poster

13: Seen anything weird lately?: yeah

14: What do you think of this quiz?: Gay.

15: What is the last film you saw?: american beauty(genius)

16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?: make the oceans taste liek capri-suns

19: Do you like to dance?: yes, techno

20: George Bush: first off his name is george and his last name is bush and 2nd off since he has basically run this country into the ground and still tries to appeal to the citizens of the u.s.a that makes him even more of a dumb ass

21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?: tristan

22: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?: tyson ritter szabo

23: Would you ever consider living abroad?: hell ya

24: Will you pass on this survey?: possibly

die right now and i will personally carry you on my wings,

2004-05-14T03:38:43Z

soo today in gym 'the' diane asked a a really good question..her words." if god kill's a kitten everytime you masturbate, then what does god do when you kill a kitten?" answer that for me

life is long when your alone

2004-05-13T04:23:44Z

i realized that morrissey and the smiths are prolly the greatest musical acomplishments ever. when morrissey writes he writes out of passion and experience and even though it may seem pointless it all has to have a reason.....im out jsut thought i would let you know

hold on, hold tight, be strong, it will be alright

2004-05-10T03:48:19Z

I still love you ____ :0(

anyways today was mothers day adn i succeeded in getting three things for my mom under the price range of 5.00$. last minute to. i made ehr a card in school.(free) i went to wal-mart and got her a mini cactus (2.87) and i got her 'hulk' body soap (1.75 on sale) so the total is 4.__. sweetness.

soo yesterday was spring fever and it was fuckign amazing. i got there at like 4:30 i think and we got there when some horrible band was playing but here in tokyo made up for it they were amzing . all the other bands were good too. but i basically stayed out side and mingled with others. such as dani golden briel maddalena(excuse spelling prolly) and the whole asking wednesday crew. then hannah loard and ali minock and one o hannahs lil' sisters friend who was fuckign weird. kyle mann was there too and then nate stapp was there and so was nick moore and jessica? and so was madison heckman and ryan szabo( soem fag haha) then lauren foly showed up . pretty cool girl.::Secrets:: alright im out later

i'll be your best kept secret and your biggest mistake

2004-05-08T19:21:01Z

so i just got done watching possibly the greatest movie of all time, American Beauty. which cast consists of Kevin Spacey who's starring role is a character named lester burnahm and he lives a troubled life with a daughter and bitch ass of a wife who puts him through hell. he is mentally and physically deprieved from hsi sex drive and finds it through his daughters freind angela (played by mena suvari who also was in 'american pie 1 and 2, spun, sugar and spice ::f.y.i. sugar and spice = horrible movie::). through out the movie hsi family falls apart and he gets a obsession over angela and it bugs the hell out of his daughter. the neighbor boy next door is a drug dealer but you wouldnt suspect that by the look of him, but he shows lester that life is full of beauty and basically say fuck everything that bothers you adn try and focus on the beauty you have around you and not let other annoyances get in your way. So he takes that into reality and quits his advertisign job and basically black mails them into a years full of salary and benefits. quite genious if you ask me. but ne ways through out the movie lesters daughter and ricky the boy next door start dating and he shows her the beauty in the world also. and she starts to realize it untill the night where all hell broke loose and rickys military father ends up killing lester. and im not really sure why but i have a idea but ill have to watch it again. o well i totally give that movie::

american beauty
10

evan_x_szabo @ 2004-05-07T16:50:00

2004-05-07T21:11:46Z

lets see....hmmm friday is supposed to be fun but since i am evan szabo and i am who i am, fridays suck. and i ussually have or think i have plans and they always fall through and that theory of mine was proven true yet again, as of this week. so tonight i will prolly just sleep and go online and prolyl watch movies by myself :0( because again i am evan szabo. i wanted to go to the local with james kelly and others but i dotn got any money and i need money for tomorrow's SPRING FEVER.

SPRING FEVER
:30-2:50 Darling Be Rational(good, kt stanley...come on its gotta be good)
3:00-3:30 The Halftones( pretty good)
3:40-4:10 The Natalie Fight(ehh....there decent.. but nigel is hot)
4:20-4:50 Lingua Franca(self explanitory)
5:00-5:30 Killdrama(good)
5:40-6:10 Here In Tokyo(GODS)
6:20-6:50 Boarderline Extortion(not sure)
7:00-7:30 Burning Cities( hopefully there better than in the past)
7:40-8:10 Spit For Athena (Eyeball Records)( same record lable or was the same record label as my chemical romance)
8:20-8:50 The Hot Flashez(okay)
9:00-9:30 Takeout(not sure)
9:40-10:10 The Swellers( dude its friggen jon dieners band.. of course it rocks)
10:20-10:50 Silence The Wake( haha..only the best)
11:00-11:30 The Conqueror Worm (Ex- Kid Brother Collective/Amputation Members)( im guessing amazing since it is the members of those two bands)
11:40-12:10 Thunderbirds Are Now! (Acutest Records) ( HOLY SHIT ! ITS THUNDERBIRDS ARE NOW)

soo everyone out there that is reading this, GO becasue I said so. well if you have the cahnce come up there and see moi. its only 10$ and re-entry is allowed .

don't cut my brakelines im tired of crashing you hurt me enough with your words

2004-05-05T22:11:42Z

I should have known it all along
I took you by the hand, you took me by the heart and you said
"kiss me one last time, but make it quick..

deja fucking vu

2004-05-05T02:21:56Z

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evan_x_szabo @ 2004-05-02T13:23:00

2004-05-02T17:24:28Z

Funeral today.. yeah... i woke up at 1:00 wow crazy..i need a new livejournal name.

lata

new house, new rules ,were burning it all

2004-04-29T22:56:15Z

today was actually better. i wasnt in such a bad mood today. it was good i felt releived i guess youc an call it. i came home and fell asleep and now im just sitting here watching viva la bam. so peaceout hommies.

love you all

fallujah erupts again

2004-04-28T21:08:44Z

today wasnt that great of a day.nothing spectacular happened. im kinda depressed and i dont know why. soo basically i am normal right now. but what ever.

evan_x_szabo @ 2004-04-27T23:45:00

2004-04-28T03:46:06Z

FUCK YOU! NO JOKE . and again FUCK YOU!

she took him to the lake.

2004-04-28T00:15:59Z

1.Kissed your cousin: no
02. Run away: no. thought about it tho.
03. Pictured crush your naked: doesnt everyone. im not sayign i have or havent.
04. Actually seen your crush naked: no. unfortunatlly :0( jp :0)
05. Broken someone's heart: probaly but idk
06. Eaten a Koala Bear?: yes but they were crackers shaped like them
07. Been in love: Love! fuck yeah. am right now
08. Cried when someone died: yeah. my dog and g-pa i was in shock when my g-ma died
09. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: Yup!
10. Broken a bone: no
11. Drank alcohol: yeah. i've drank it never got drunk or anythign close to drunk.
12. Lied :yeah. everyone has and if they say they havent they are lying(ironic)
*W H I C H* I S* B E T T E R*
13. COKE OR PEPSI: pepsi
15. GIRLS OR GUYS: girls
16. FLOWERS OR CANDY: candy for me flowers for gifts
17. SCRUFF OR CLEAN SHAVEN: what ever
18. QUIET OR LOUD: quiet
19. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES: brunettes more than blondes
20. BITCHY OR SLUTTY: wtf. neither
21. TALL OR SHORT: whateva
22. PANTS OR SHORTS: pants
*W I T H *T H E *O P P O S I T E* S E X*
23. WHAT DO YOU NOTICE FIRST: eyes
24. LAST PERSON YOU SLOW DANCED WITH: someone at homecoming
25. WORST QUESTION TO BE ASKED: are u mad at me? thats the gayest thing EVER!!
*T H E* L A S T* T I M E*
26. SHOWERED: last night
27. HOOKED UP: umm..never really.. never had a girlfriend.. kinda was(am?) with someone but i wouldnt call it "hooking up"
28. HAD A GREAT TIME WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX: hmm..last time i hung out with someone
*W H A T *I S*
29. YOUR GOOD LUCK CHARM:dont really have one.
30. PERSON YOU HATE MOST:dont hate anyone who doesnt hate me.
31. THE BEST THING THAT HAS HAPPENED TO YOU TODAY: nothign really.
*F A V O R I T E S*
32. COLOR: red/blue
33. MOVIE: too many to call my favorite... kill bill, requiem for a dream, rules of attraction, donnie darko.
34. BOOK: if i read books i would let you know.
36. JUICE: capri sun ..andy kind but the lemon ade
37. CAR: acura integra with a lot of stuff under the hood.
38. ICE CREAM: cookie dough
39. HOLIDAY: my 16th b-day
40. SEASON: spring
41. BREAKFAST FOOD: none, dont eat breakfast
*B E S T*
43. COLOGNE: shit i dont know
44. PERFUME: no clue
45. KISS: hell if i know
46. ROMANTIC MEMORY: o shit! the person it was with should know.
47. MOST RECENT ADVICE GIVEN TO YOU: shang in there! it will get bettter!
*H A V E* Y O U*
48. Fallen for your best friend?: actually . last year
49. Kissed JUST a friend?: lol no...:0(
50. Been rejected?: yeah
51. Been in love?: TOtally
52. Been in lust?: yeah ive only been in love once or twice the rest have been lust's
53: Used someone?: nahhhh...
54. Been used?: no
55. Cheated on someone?: nope
56. Been cheated on?: nope
57. Been kissed?: shit ...no i knew that question was coming.
58. Done something you regret?: not really..
*W H O* W A S *T H E* L A S T *P E R S O N*
59. You touched?: jesse fogleman
60. You talked to?: madison (heckman) i think ::my bro's girlfriend just talking about spring fever
61. You hugged?:joelle martin
62. You instant messaged? autumn rzendzian (flushing girl)
63. You laughed at: jesse and me being fuckers in lit and comp.
65. You yelled at?: cant remember
66. You laughed with?: not sure
67. Who broke your heart?: not sure
68. Who told you they loved you?: ashley alfaro.
*D O *Y O U*
69. Color your hair? notta
70. Have tattoos? nope
71. Have piercings? nope...will in later life
72. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both?: no..not really
73. Own a webcam? no
74. Own a thong? doesnt every guy
75. Ever get off the damn computer?no
*H A V E* Y O U */* D O*Y O U* / *A R E* Y O U*
79. Stolen anything? on accident when i was three i stole a mini piano thing from micheals (the store)
80. Smoke? nope
81. Schizophrenic? sometimes
82. Obsessive? i dont call it obsession i call it "deaply involved" lol 'james kelly'
83. Compulsive? no
84. Obsessive compulsive?no
85. "Panic? "yeah all the time
86. Anxious? yeah
87. Depressed?lol ask anyone you'll get the answer
88. Suicidal? nope. depressive not suicidal
89. Obsessed with hate? nahh
90. Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? have before
91. Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them?no
92. If you could be anywhere, where would you be?somewhere other than here with a few select people/
93. Can you do anything freakish with your body? i can crack my bones like a motha fucker
94. What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others? i would have to say eyes...because i dont know there jsut somethign about eyes that i dont know makes me like them alot more becasue i mean its gunna be somethign you look at for a long time .
95. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president? yeah
96. Would you marry for money? nahhh
97. Have you had braces?nahhhh
98. Do you like hairy backs? oh god yes. ewww fuck no

99. When was the last time you gave head? last night haha
100. Could you live without a computer? no
101. Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc.? yeah
102. If so, how many people are on your list(s)? usually over 40 are on out of 178...im a LOSER
103. If you could live in any past, where? 80's rocked
104. Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: take em off
105. What is your favorite fruit?: strawberry
106. Do you eat wheat bread or white?: white
107. What is your favorite place to visit?: Plant City florida
108. What is the last movie you saw?: Big Daddy i watched it when it was on tv the other day
109. Do you kiss on the first date?: sure y not
110. Are you photogenic?: no
111. Do you dream in color or black and white?: come to think about it i think black n white actually i really dont know
112. Are you wearing fingernail polish?: no
113. Is it chipped or fresh?: dont have any on
114. Do you have any dimples?: i dont think so
115. Do you remember being born?: no
116. Why do you take surveys?: there fun
117. Do you drink alcohol?: i have
118. Did you like or do you like high school?: i'd rather go to Plant City High School
119. What is the best accent? southern
120. Who do you want to kiss?: Tony
121. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most?: BOTH...if they're watched on the beach
122. Do you want to live to be 100?: sure
123. Is a flat stomach important to you?: not really
124. Do you or have you played with a ouija board?: no
125. Are you loyal?: yeah
126. Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs?: i think?
127. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?: off
128. Do you have frequent nightmares: yeah, i have some scary ass dreams if u want to know about them just i/m me they're rather interesting
129. Do you like your nose?: i guess
131. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn’t real?: 14 haha jk 8
132. How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet? at least 25
133. Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday or do you like a variety?: depends
134. Do you write poetry?: no
135. Do you snore?: no
136. Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides?: all
137. dog/cat? both
138. Do you lick stamps?: yeah they taste good
139. Do you use an electric can opener?: no sorry not that rich haha jk
140. Have you ridden in a hot air balloon?: no
141. Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?: physical
142. Favorite TV show?: Viva La Bam or Jackass when that actually comes on
143. Do you know anyone who is clinically depressed?: yes but he is very old
144. Do you prefer a piano or a violin?: piano.. and this is something that the person said that i stole this thing from (violin like in Yellowcard..yeah they use to b cool but now they're all on fricken TRL)haah wtf: that has to be the funniest thing i've ever heard...o geez there on trl omg i dotn like them now..fuck you
145. Are you a sex addict?: no
146. Do you know someone who has cancer?: wow: thats quite an ironic question: yes i do actually theythought i had cancer but it turned out nto to be (no joke)
147. Do you like to argue?: god yeah
148. Do you hunt?: no. i hate hunters. even though i eat meat. dont ask
149. Do you like fast food joints, or expensive restaurants? what eva its food bia
150. Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?: zoo
151. Do you have a middle name? Matthew
152. Are you basically a happy person?:half anf half
153. Are you tired?: no i feeel like shit though
154. Did you drink anything with caffeine in it today?: am right now. wait does 7-up have caffeine
155. Have you ever met anyone off the internet? like met them in person? lol yeah: autumn nicole rzendzian (turned out to be a damn cool person)
156. How many phones do you have in your house?: 7
157. How long is your hair?: to the bottem of my ear lobes
158. Do you get along with your parents?:my dad yeah.. mom, selected
159. What color of eyes do you prefer?i dont care i just like eyes i like brown or blue
*T H E* L A S T* T I M E *I*
221. Smiled?: a minute ago
222. Laughed?: last hour
223. Cried?: ummm....i dont really cry i just get depressed
224. Bought something?: last night a pink pleather belt at wal-mart for 7.89
225. Danced?: today ...techno dance bia.
226. Were sarcastic?: like i always am
227. Kissed someone?: neva and yes i realize thats rediculous. but i just am wating for the right time and the perfect person to have my 'first ' kiss with
228. Talked to an ex?: dont have a ex
230. Do you own any plaid clothing?: umnmmm...yeah
231. Do you own Converse shoes?: yeah.
232. Do you own Saucony shoes?: no but i want some
233. Do you own old school Nikes?:haah i did
234. Do you wear tight pants?: there tight...but not like skin tight
235. Is there more than one zipper in your pants?: ont he pants right now there isnt even a zipper. three buttons babe
*I N* T H E *L A S T* D A Y *H A V E *Y O U*
236. Worn a skirt: lol no
237. Been mean: yeah
238. Been sarcastic: all the time
239. Met someone new: yes
240. Missed someone: yup...like crazy
241. Hugged someone: yes
242. Fought with your parents:yeah..mom
243. Wished upon a star:nahh
244: laughed untill you cried? yeah today i think
245. Played Truth or Dare: nahhh
246. Watched a sunrise/sunset: yeah
247. Went to the beach at night: nope
248. Spent quality time alone: yeah
249. Read a book for fun: hah no
250. Are you lonely: now yes
251. Are you wearing your pajamas?: no
252. Are you talking to someone online: madison(brosg/f ) amanda beck , autumn rzendzian

un-kool-aid

2004-04-25T21:04:23Z

today i woke up at like 11:45ish and i came down stairs went piss went back up and fwatched some t.v. i ended up getting hooked to some movies today and i've been watching movies all day:

Being John Malcovich: a crazy good movie. i enjoyed it a lot. it was another one of those genius movies directed by the man himself spike jones. it starred john cusack as a puppet master named craig ::schwarts::(i think was his last name) and it is about craig(cusack) finding a door in his office behind a file cabinet and it ends up turning out to be a time portal into the life and mind of a actor named John Malcovich. thorugh out the movie craigs wife realizes that she is questioning her sexual (preferance) and uses the portal to experience a relationship with craigs partner maxine. in the end craig and mazine have a relationship through malcovich's mind and craig/john uses his farmer acting career to spark his puppeteering act. and he succeeds but doesnt realize that the portal infact is a way for a man that goes by the name Dr.Lester to live forever.
my rating
10-10

High Fedelity another John Cusack masterpiece. basicallt it is a reflection into a recordstore owners (cusack) breakups as of the past.

my rating
7

this is the summary of movies i watched today i will most likely watch kill bill tonight and update.

evan_x_szabo @ 2004-04-23T16:01:00

2004-04-23T20:02:40Z

ANNA PETERS
Fucking Rocks!

evan_x_szabo @ 2004-04-22T16:38:00

2004-04-22T20:40:10Z

i think i have had this before but im not sure but if soo just fill it out again. i like to see how much you guys really do hate me.

1)If you could chose any name for me what would it be/why?
2)Have we ever dated?
3)If so was I a good boyfriend?
4)What is my best quality?
5)What is my worst quality?
6)What was the craziest thing weve ever done?
7)What was the cutest thing ive ever did?
8)Am i a good friend/why?
9)What was the dumbest thing ive ever done?
10)Whats my favorite food?
11)When you talk do I listen?
12)Whose my bestest friend?
13)Have we ever kissed?
14)If so was it good?
15)Whats the funnest thing weve ever done together?
16)What was your first impression of me?
17)What reminds you of me?
18)Whats is my weakness?
19)Could I ever hurt someone?
20) what is your favorite thing about me?

evan_x_szabo @ 2004-04-22T15:29:00

2004-04-22T19:33:44Z

School

evan_x_szabo @ 2004-04-20T23:42:00

2004-04-21T03:43:40Z

420
DAMN I MISSED IT THIS YEAR TO!
FUCK

Do you wanna live forever? F* Yeah, F* YEah

2004-04-19T23:45:59Z

school = shit tit fuck ass cunt head slit wrist bitch. i hate it . as you can see.

day as ussual was shitty as fuck and it was really rediculous. long.

everybody listen to this band i found go to there web site (thepale.com) and go to music and download the song ( gravity gets things done)

I've got toothpicks in my eyes. a smile more yellow than the sky

2004-04-18T20:22:35Z

soo today is sunday april 18, 2004 ( the last day of spring break). and im pissed. because i got zero things accomplished on break.:

the first 5 days: lets see you ever get thos head aches where your nose and eyes hurts. well thats why happened to me, i was dizzy like a drunk and head a head ache like something. sorry im running low on analogies.

wednesday thursday and friday" i went to rob sheehans house. and we went to buffalo wild wings with his sister jenny( excuse spelling) and dennis wheelenow im off. o and yeah im still white . im suprized if you couldnt see my glow when the sun hits my skin at the right angle.

~im out you slits~